There it was...
The moment I realised that the “me” I met that day was very lost - out of touch with home.
Why had I run away from myself?
My journey back to my body—and to an embodied sense of self-worth and sparkle—began in 2005. At the time, I was a performing artist, struggling with a harsh self-image, nagging voices in my head, and a constant sense of overwhelm. I often felt on alert around others, even with friends and family. My body had become tight and braced—highly sensitive to food, light, sound, and fabrics. My system felt depleted, caught in protective overdrive
Until that one day, I took a trial session with a colleague dancer who was training to become a Feldenkrais somatic movement educator.
Coming Home to My Sensuous Body Wise
That day, I became painfully aware of how I had lost touch with myself—how I had become a chameleon, tiptoeing around others in my efforts to make myself invisible. My body had lost its natural mobility and sensuality.
I realized that I had not only drifted away from myself but also from what fueled my deepest passion to dance and move through life: the curiosity and wonder I once felt, feeling the flow of life in all its flavors, fragrances, sensations, and colors, and, above all, this feeling of freedom when dancing—expressing myself fully, spontaneously, and authentically.
The tough years at Dance and Art School, and all the times I felt on edge around others—battling shame, self-doubt, struggles with food, and fragile self-worth—had certainly left their mark. It dawned on me that years of anxious bracing and lack of boundaries had taken a toll on my body and nervous system.
The Awareness Through Movement class on that sunny winter afternoon awakened a forgotten feeling deep inside; a memory of a time when I felt whole, full of life, safe, and at ease in my skin. In this first subtle session, I already experienced how spacious, peaceful, and relaxed my body could feel when I didn’t criticize myself, push myself, or blame my body for how I felt. And that sensation felt like a gift after years of tension, anxiety, and fatigue.
Soon after, I signed up for the four-year teacher training to become a Feldenkrais Method somatic movement educator. What touched me most was how, after so many years, sensations of pleasure, curiosity, safety, and quiet began to return—leaving me at ease and present in my body.
I discovered that the more I paused and listened within, the more I could sense my needs and set clear boundaries. Coming home to my body, I began to regain my natural fluidity, strength, and sensuality.
Awakening my inner Sparkle
From here, other turning points in my life arose—profound moments where movement restored my sense of self-trust and inner sparkle.
During my first NIA trip in Vienna, something cracked open as I danced. It was as if a light inside me had ignited itself after years of being muffled. What a spacious, vibrant, radiant sensation that was…
That week reconnected me to curiosity and wonder - to the joy of being me, to the freedom of dancing unselfconsciously and naturally. I regained a new felt vitality - a deep sense of inner aliveness and spiritedness - what I came to call my inner sparkle, my soul’s radiance.
NIA became a steady practice in my life, to nurture the playfulness, creativity, and wonder in my expressive inner child.
Awakening to Safe, Felt Connection
A few years later, I discovered Organic Intelligence®—a coaching approach for post-trauma growth. It was just after I had moved to Spain, seeking to live closer to nature and write a new chapter in my life.
Organic Intelligence is about reorganising one’s biology—the nervous system that has learned:
It is safer to stay alert than to fully soften and open—
into a nervous system that responds with:
It is safe to reach out and receive with curiosity.
Little did I know how deeply this would impact my life. As the unresolved intensity that had been lingering in the background since my childhood years finally began to settle, a deep inner sense of safety and calm emerged.
Embodying what Organic Intelligence® taught me felt like the missing piece of the puzzle, bringing clarity to what my intuition had long known.
Slowly, the shielded layers around my heart began to soften and dissolve, as my nervous system began to reorganize itself—quietly rewriting its patterns and reorienting me toward a felt, authentic connection with the world around me. I learned to let myself be guided back to ease by the quiet invitations of my own neurobiology.
My psyche followed biology
The most important lesson my journey back into my body and to myself revealed—one that confirmed what my Sensuous Body Wise had been trying to tell me all along—is that the psyche follows biology, not the other way around. To heal, we need to wholeheartedly befriend our very own nature: our biology, our Sensuous Body Wise.
What I learned over time was that unresolved emotional intensity—such as shame, fear, and loneliness—can exceed a system’s capacity to process it. Over time, this shaped how my body behaved, and how I came to experience myself and the world around me.
It dawned on me that feeling better began with my body feeling better first - and that everything else followed from there: emotions began to shift, sensations became more informative, and perception widened - what once felt threatening began to feel safer.
Through guiding other women, I began to see that this was not just my story, but a protective body pattern many nervous systems learn when unresolved emotional intensity exceeds capacity over time.
Growing Into MAMA - A path to Self-Care
Map, Anchor, Move, Align
Over the years, I have created my own roadmap, which I call MAMA. It is grounded in the living wisdom of three modalities that have shaped my healing, growth, and vitality: Feldenkrais Neurosomatic Movement Education, Organic Intelligence® for Post-Trauma Growth, and the somatic movement practice NIA.
MAMA is rooted in my journey into embodied self-worth. It is a synthesis of my learning path, weaving somatic and neurobiological felt understanding with my background in dance and art.
MAMA has guided me to move, dance, and care for myself in ways that nurture my authentic, uninhibited, playful Self. It has helped me rediscover how to move comfortably through my emotional and sensory world, using the wisdom of my Sensuous Body Wise and Wild Wise Heart as a compass. By moving with the rhythms of my Self Wise, I now make choices in tune with my Wild Wise Heart—choices that have, over time, shaped me into the radiant, vibrant woman I am today.
This journey has sparked my desire to support other women who have lost touch with themselves, feel on guard around others, or have dimmed their light out of fear.
I guide them to feel safe being themselves again, and to reconnect with their Sensuous Body Wise and Wild Wise Heart—trusting their inner wisdom so they can live from who they truly are and experience authentic connection.
My professional background
My curiosity and commitment to learning have led me to train in a variety of somatic, body-awareness, and coaching modalities, including:
Certified Training
These are the modalities in which I completed full professional training and received certification:
- Feldenkrais method® neuro-somatic movement education & coaching
- NIA® Somatic Dance Movement Vitality (black belt)
- NIA® Move to heal
- Organic Intelligence® Post Trauma Growth Coaching
- Quantum Human Design®
- Chakradance® mind-body healing
- Body-Centered Energy Therapy MEE®
- Fine Arts
Additional Study & Exploration
These are modalities I have undertaken for deeper understanding, ongoing professional development, and personal exploration:
- Organ Rebalancing
- Chakra Segment massage bodywork
- Neuro-Linguistic Programming Practitioner (NLP)®
- Intuitive Family Constellations
- Focusing® experiential body-awareness method by Gene Gendlin
- Somatic Internal Family Systems
- Contemporary Dance